and that is why I have prolonged posting anything. I wish I was back to share with you good news, but alas, things are still miserable. I want to tell you that God has fixed every situation, but that just isn't true. For whatever reason, God has chosen to be silent during the trials which have presented themselves.
I'm not a cry baby. I've had my share of troubles, and through them all, I have managed to trust God and keep a certain level of faith. This is like no other time. I find myself questioning God and his plans for my life and my marriage. I find myself wondering if everything has been a lie. Honestly, I don't know what to believe anymore. It's not that I have folded in the face of adversity. It took me a long time to get to this point. Up until a few weeks ago, I think I was handling the situation pretty well. I tried to see the bright side of things and tried to maintain hope that things would turn out okay...I just don't know anymore.
My mother used to tell me if I didn't have anything nice to say, I shouldn't say anything at all. This is why I haven't written in so long. I have nothing else nice to say. At this point I am simply trying to make it through any given day. I sure hope that your situation is fairing better than mine.
